Long Time No See

I get some pretty interesting thoughts at work. There is a lot of time for my brain to relax, and ideas just start popping into my head.

Sometimes, they're pretty weird. Like today, about 2-3 hours into the day, I started to get really drowsy. The guy next to me started opening up his drawers making a slight noise. To me, these noises were like grenades going off, I really don't know why. The noises just kind of pissed me off because they seemed so damn loud.

Then the lady next to him started yapping on and on about how she feels like "picking on someone" in a friendly manner. I remembered watching this video online where some guy in an office setting just goes nuts and dumps a monitor into the next guy's cubicle. I thought it would be funny to just stand on my desk and pour pop all over her. She'd be like "Who the fuck is this guy? I've never even seen this fool, and he's dumping shit all over me." It would be quite hilarious.

It's almost as if I get these thought/urges because I just want someone crazy to happen. Nothing crazy ever happens, its always the same thing over and over, just a different twist on the day. If something crazy happened, it would be quite stimulating, and I think that's what I'm craving.

I also wish I could post on my blog while I'm at work. I have all this "in between" time that I could post some really interesting thoughts.


Also, I was reading online, and some guy mentioned something about depression, and how it's a lack of energy. I know I've heard that a million times, but I've never really thought about it. Maybe that's what depression is, a lack of "spiritual" energy. I always thought the statement was referring to physical energy, which it might be, but I've never thought about it any differently. Possibly, this lack of spiritual energy is what makes you feel down for no apparent reason. If you have no spiritual energy, what is there to live for? Everything would have such a bland connotation to it. No interesting thoughts would pop into your head, you'd just think about things on the superficial level and stop at that. There would be no striving for new ideas, just the perception of a stagnant environment.

I wish I had more time to develop my ideas. It seems as though when I do have a topic to write about, distractions always start popping up and I can never really develop my ideas into anything substantial. I guess I just need to focus more.