Idle Thoughts

As time passes, it seems as though my drive for finding answers to my internal questions becomes less and less. I remember a time where a large portion of my day-to-day brain processing was spent on trying to figure out why I acted the way I did, or why other people acted the way they did. It kept me in an intrigued/amused sort of state of mind.

It wasn't just this human interaction that intrigued me either. I also spent a substantial amount of time thinking about religion/spirituality/whatever-you-want-to-call-it. It always felt like there was something that if I learned it, I would feel much more fulfilled. I don't know if I ever really found what I was looking for, but the point is, why did I stop on this quest for "enlightenment"?

Day-to-day now, I feel/think like I perceive a "normal" person should. I think about what I'm going to eat, what kind of work I have to do, how much time do I have, etc. I rarely have any "novel" thoughts like I used to have on a daily basis.

It's not like my life sucks, because it's quite the contrary; I am very much enjoying where I am in my life, I have an awesome girlfriend, and I feel like I have a bright future ahead of me. There is definitely a lot to be happy about. It just feels at times that in the process of striving to build a "normal" and comfortable life, I have lost something in the process.

Here's to hoping we can all find something we've lost in the process of living our lives. :cheers: